I guess you all know what im going to talk about.....
yeah!!after being in japan for about 2 month++..and just now i would like to tell you the truth about my life here....
Actually i feel so stress here..i know most of you would think that..."how lucky is she/he to get the opportunity studying abroad...!!"....heh!!but it is not true at all....
I know its maybe my fate to have the chance studying abroad especially JAPAN...one of the most advance country....
But there's something missing here...for me...
"Life's journey is easier when you hear a friends footsteps behind you..."
Honestly i got no friends here..i mean best friend...the one who always walks beside you..laugh with you..and the one that you would share all days together...
i got a lot of new friends...yea..through the programs that i've joined before...and you know what...that was the first time i make friends outside the comfortable group!!
its has been a long time i didn't laugh too much like i did when i hang out with my friends...the atmosphere here is totally change 180 degree!!!the friends of mine here as like more to serious...or i mean...erk...don't know what to say..and when we get along..i feel like i've to control myself...isnt that a hypocrite?????
And FYI..i don't have too many Japanese friends here..i dont know why...i feel that all Japanese are too cold!!..
i don't know if Japanese in Kanto region only behave like this..not very friendly..because i saw some of my friends who live in Kansai region like Osaka,Kobe...etc...so jealous with them...the Japaneses there look so friendly..but i also heard some of my seniors said...Japanese in Kanto region and Kansai region a bit different..
And because my tutor and i were the only two girls in my class...other 41 students are all guys!!!
"don't you friends with the guys???"....erk...like i said before...guys here..if i don't start first..they wouldn't move..understand me??
Guys...i miss you all a lot.....
"Friends make the world go round.."
About study...yea..forgot to tell you about my tutor...i have a tutor..a girl in the same class with me...she was chosen to help me in studies....but....i feel that having a tutor doesn't help me at all in my studies..HONESTLY...i am not going to tell that my tutor is not good enough..but since from the first time we met...she already told me that she is not good at study..i thought she was lying at first...but its true.........never mind...i try to study on my own..although its hard....
back about study...the spirit to study electrics sometime is about to diminish...its hard i tell you....could you imagine how it feels if you have to study the subjects that you didn't expect in a sudden....its a big pain for me...
"There's nothing easy in this world..."
heh..sorry for babbling too much...erm..but then i try to think positively...maybe what happen to me here is the punishment for sins that i've made before...
im so tired to persuade myself all the time.....
and to someone that almost all the times accompany me without feeling any bore although through Skype only...thanks a lot...i cant imagine what my world here would be without you..just God know what i feel towards you...thanks....
p/s:my Nikon d3100 had arrived last Wednesday..but i still don't have the time with it..
3 comments:
Fyyy, jangan sedih2. We will always be by ur side. okay tipu la always. but we WILL TRY the hardest to be with you k. Gambate fy! BEtul ke? hehe.
Jangan cepat nangis. Fify that i know wont let her tears pour down easily. Lotsoflove for you from malaysia. :)
Fy, I can feel you. Dulu masa the first couple of months dok kat NZ ni aku pun rasa lonely sesangat. Aku takde kengkawan from NZ, I was just confined to my all Malaysian circle of friends. Kalau nak buat something it's either with them or on my own. Sangat tak best. Tapi bila dah lama sikit duduk sini I realized that I was just going through my frustration stage, which happens to everyone living away from home (rasa lonely, terasing, everything seems foreign. If you have time google la pasal 'stages of culture shock'). Alhamdulillah sekarang dah ok sikit. Maybe in your case it will be a bit difficult to cope (aku kat sini at least ramai jugak student Malaysia), but I believe you can handle it well, you are a very bright and cheerful girl, mesti senang dapat kawan punya :D
All the best fy duduk kat sana...ganbatte neh!
fatimah,kreen..thanx a lot for your support..thanx sgt2...doakn aku kt cni...huhu
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