Random thoughts on 2014

Actually nak update about 2014 summary.
Heh, but too early babeh.. and, konon2 nak update in English, sebab terasa English makin bodoh after exam TOEIC lepas.. but, heshh..
Terimalah hakikat lemah bahasa. So pardon my language.

Okay, back to the topic yea, random thoughts on 2014.. I will try to recall all my thoughts for this whole year. Heehee.. sometimes, we can recall the thoughts right? As its keep merry―go―around in our head. 何だこれ？？

#1 Don't expect that the happiness will be yours forever fellass..

#2 I've always wonder, that people use instagram just to show off their fucking luxury life...they got this, they went there, they got superb cars, they got superb crazy friends, they ate the best food in town..BUT, think the bright sight, they want to spread the happiness, maybe?? Ψ(￣∇￣)Ψ

#3 You will earn what you want when your will-power reached to the maxxx! Trust me, im livin it.. but, dont ask me how to boost the will-power.. coz I guess the booster is YOU, YOURSELF!

#4 Don't put too much expectation on your before-married relationship. HAHA! Coz it hurts too much when the relationship goes down.

#5 Just leave the guy, when you dont see yourself in his future. JUST LEAVE. Just dont waste your time. That's all.

#6 Sometimes you just need the time alone. See the world by yourself thus, you can explore youself more. Travel alone might be the brilliant idea, trust me. Hahaha.

#7 Just do what you want, and dont ever let others effect what you want to do. But, heyy beragak la jugak.. kalo ko nak pergi clubbing, member kata tak boleh tp ko pergi gak, memang nak kena hempuk! Contoh, ok.

#8 I believe that having 少ないbestie is far away better than having lots of friends. Apa guna ada berjuta kawan, but when you get upset, no ones care. Boooooo...

#9 Dont get mad when your parents bertekak tak bagi you hang out a lot, coz the truth is, they just want you to be with them. They just want to see you get lazy on the cozy sofa watching tv. Senang citer, they just want you in the house. Lalalala~

#10 People come to our life for a certain reason. But I always believe that God sends happiness to me via them. Million thanks to the people who step in my life. I'll carve your name in my heart,then.. heee

#11 ELEVEN. My fav number, so Im gonna talk about thing I've fancy for the past 5 years. It's all about CRUSH! So brace yourself or just skip this and just read the #12. Haha. You got crush, but at the same time you got lovers. Why? Because your lovers(read ex-lovers) had put on sooooo much effort to get you, whilst you crush(of course, he didnt know you had crush on him) did nothing for you. So who you have to choose then. Of course, the one who've chased you like crazy, right? Then, that time.. you just feel like, crush is just a crush coz you've already choose the chaser. I repeat, coz you've choose the CHASER. But then I realized, you had been crushed into him for the half of decade, so why dont you be the chaser????? Why not, try to be the CHASER at least once in your lifetime. Just be the chaser, or I might be regretted with what had happen to my ex-crush. But, be aware, don't put too much expectation, coz that Mr. Crush got heart too. He deserves to chase the girl that he wants too..NOTE that. Well, I will keep chasing as long as he doesnt run away. But if he gives the sign to run away, so I will stop..but I will not stop waiting for you. =)
But, hmmm Im not saying that I am the full-time chaser, coz I wanna play kejar-kejar with you too (^_^)v So, crush.. say YES if you wanna start the game. Ok, gedik level 1000. Next, please...

#12 Hmm, I keep wondering when my bestfriend's husband adviced me, try to keep away from the guy who chased you like crazy hell, coz once he got you, he will not appreciate you. Well, I experienced it once though. Hmmmm.

#13 The guy that propose you just to know you more is such a gentleman and NOT GELOJOH ok.. I dont think it is so gelojoh, but heyy, respect kot coz I believe guy yang macam tu as like 1 in a million. Please note, that..he proposes not only you, but your whole family okay.

#14 The future sometimes scared me. Who will I be in the next 5 years?? Does the job that I will have back then, make me happy? Will I make happiness more than I make money? What will be my first car??? Will I become an architect? Whose my spouse? Okay, Im not ready to say bye2 to my chicky-childish life. Im not ready.

#15 Why dont you try to go back to your hometown,once. Drive alone on the city, going nowhere just to feel that.. aaahhh..I've been here, I've been there, Ive passed this road a long time ago.. aaaahhh, you will know that feeling. Hometownーthe childhood place, where the place that you play kejar2, hide and seek, the place where you grown up.. go to school just to meet up your friend, and can't wait to hear the school bell to ring as it means that your playtime starts. Meeting long-lost friends and childhood friends give you a wide perspective to the world.

Well, hmm I guess there might be a lot of random thought, but hmm let me stop at #15 coz I'm so lazy to recall them. Well, should it be continued??nahhhhh, nope. Till then, well next update will be the summary of 2014. See ya.

SMILE

Si penjaga hati.

My first ever contact lens.

Hola,
At last, this naughty little girl langgar peraturan ayah yang ke sekian juta kalinya, and one of it is pakai contact lens.
Huuu, i know ayah would be angry if he knew this..so let it be secret. Muahahaha..
Okayy, nervous, takut semua ada as a first timer..

Just walk if you can't run

"Just walk with anyone, anytime, anywhere as long as it can heal your broken heart"- the butterfly.

Another night.

One night and one more time..thanks for the memories~♪♪

How I wish you know the truth behind the 'crush story' =')

And how I wish the night would never end...

Need to post the date here, who knows I can repeat it again on the same date..
9-10 October 2014 -p.m a.m-

The last love fairytale of mine..

At last, a heartbreaking news happened last night. The 3 years of joy, happiness, love, batman-story, and many more finally ended last night on 2nd October 2014.
I hope, this is the last story of my life about the Love-before married that i would share here.

Hey you, i dont know if you would read this.. this song is specially dedicated to you..

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby.....

Last night was the saddest night that ive been through.. but...
Thanks a lot to my crush..

A crush, that willingly to accompany me through the night..going nowhere in the middle of the night..till 4 o'clock in the morning..
Walking along the riverside..it was so cold, the midnight wind..and gazing the stars with you, was such a precious moment that i would never ever forget..
We talked so much, that some , maybe a lot of your story made me fall into you more and more.. though you just a crush for me.. thanks my always crush. =)

And, its time to say good bye to my ex-lover.. though its not so easy to say.. what a tough Goodbye ='(

自分の結婚式どうなるかな～

Vacation alone

What a crazy and extreme
idea, but still didnt decide yet..
Maybe emosi tak menentu
Hah!i admit, i feel a bit jealous with those who got a chance to go for a '"卒業旅行"  with their japanese friends or what we call graduation vacation????erk

Pity you fify for having the weirdddd classmates(i've told u before about them in my previous post,haha!)

And i just knew that they went for the 卒業旅行 without inviting me. pity you fify!

And another sad thing is..
Hurm, i still can't believe, me the still 22 years old holding huge amount of $$ but it is used for variety of payments?!!i'm shocked.i'm literally shocked!!! I guess, or I should mark on my year-calendar that March is always the month of money!

But thanks to one of the maybank banker, or i guess money-planner(?)she gave me the inspiration to double up my asb so that I can pay down-payment for a house at the early age of 30! Good idea.. ahhh, lets dont talk about the money thingyyyy..
Coz the saddest partttt is,
the news that ibu ayah cancelled their plan going to Japan for my graduation day is suchhhh a frustating thing(the saddest thing i think?!)
I dont wanna talk much about that,
Sedih!hampa!kecewa!frust! But i believe we plan,but Allah is the best of planners.. Hurmm

But.. I'll remember what my ayah had promised me～*i cant tell here what it is as it is a big secret,heh!!!

Well, it is a sad thing to have no celebration for my graduation, i mean at least by myself.. :'(
After 5 years berhempas pulas for a diploma???!!

Alhamdulillah! ALLAH helps me in many ways, and I know, without the dua's from ibu ayah, bestfriends, I guess I wouldnt manage to stay on this path that i've chosen 5 years ago :'(

Hurmm, back to the topic, yes, im planning for a lonely vacation.. where and when is still under planning.
Again, we plan, but Allah decide all...

Teaser...

Impian

Hurm..
It's 1:30a.m but my brain wouldnt stop thinking..haha!
Have you ever been felt like seeing someone's dream is just not that high than yours but h/she seems got enough of it?
As like, you keep wondering why would you put your dream higher than other and it looks so difficult to achieve..

Do you understand what I am saying about?hurmm let me give an example of my situation..

Contohnya; about car(ni je yang terlintas right now)
Hurm, sejujurnya aku tak pernah aim nak beli kereta viva ke, myvi ke.. mahupun honda accord ke?but I aim higher than that.. aku aim kereta2 yang dahsyat2 macam koenigsegg , gtr-35, lamborghini and byk lagi. PELIK! How come aku boleh aim setinggi itu sedangkan hurm ayahku tak punyai kereta mewah pun.
And sometimes I feel jealous bila dia just aim Myvi... OK MYVI je????!

Back then, aku muhasabah diri balik..
Mungkin impian die nampak kecil, tapi kita tak tau bagi dia.. impian tu da besar sangat bagi dia!!!! Contoh senang, aku aim just nak lulus exam je, maybe orang lain pandang, "ek elleh, aim lulus je????rendahnya matlamat!!"
Padahal orang tu tak tahu.. betapa gila vavi susahnya nak lulus exam tu ibarat mencari segelen air di padang pasir yang kering kontang!hehe, my example is too extreme right?

And of course, if we aim too damnn high, so the obstacle that will come out will definitely be too damnnnn big!!a titanic obstacle!

Macam ayah selalu pesan, everytime I keep complaining to ayah about how hard studying here(Japan) as their education is sooooo not my level(malaysian education level,hell yaa the japanese already learnt the complicated diferentiation and integration at age 15 or maybe earlier than that!!!!), and ayah like always said,
"Kalau takut dilambung ombak, jangan berumah di tepi pantai"
Padan muka diri sendiri!elok-elok dapat Utm @ semarak, berlagak KUAT pilih Jepun without thinking the risk!padan muka fify!you deserve it!

Somehow my own definition of that phrase , if you aim higher, it means you're ready with any possible outcomes, risk that you may face to..
And again, jangan berumah di tepi pantai for me, is not just a house, but sebuah agam mewah dengan pemandangan cantik tepi pantai..sanggup bina mewah2 biarpun tahu ombak besar mungkin akan datang..

So conclusion?
Don't aim too high if you are not ready with the possible obstacle that might get in the way of achieving your goals/dreams. But if you want to, make sure you are the REAL BRAVE RISK-Taker!!!!!

OmG! What a motivation before going to sleep!

色々大事にしよう(bersyukur jom!)

Hello again my diary (^з^)-☆

Hari ini rasa nak cerita benda yang aku rasa agak menarik. Tadi aku menonton 2 rancangan berbeza. Dua-dua rancangan bagi aku pengajaran yang sangat bermakna. Eherm.Skema!

Wah!ini kali yang ke berapa entah jatuh cinta lagi dengan Jepun..kebaikan Jepun itu sendiri tak perlu dikecoh-kecoh.. buat baik secara diam-diam. Yelah, tak macam kita.. baru sedekah rm 1000 dah buat banner, ambil gambar bagai. APAKAH?kebaikan yang ditunjuk2??????maaf tersasar!

Rancangan yang aku tengok tadi, adalah mengenai realiti hidup orang2 kampung di Papua New Guinea. Hidup mereka serba kekurangan, namun mereka nampak gembira sekali! Kampung yang dikelilingi hutan dan laut. Tiada bekalan elektrik, mahupun bekalan air. Keadaan di sekolah, cukuplah daun sebagai alas tempat duduk. Buku nota share 3～4 orang. Hidup mereka sekadar yang cukup.

Punyalah baik hati kan orang Jepun ni, dia buat rancangan bawa satu keluarga ni homestay di Jepun. Huu.. kesian, rupanya mereka tak pernah naik kapal terbang, train pun diorang baru tahu!

Setiap benda yang mereka lalui di Jepun termasuklah mandi air panas adalah pengalaman yang cukup unik bagi mereka. Nangis!

Mereka kagum dengan teknologi yang ada..dan terkejut setiap benda hanya perlu tekan button on! Huhuhu..
Bila tengok rancangan ni, buat aku rasa hurm... bersyukurlah seadanya.. kerana masih ada yang serba kekurangan. Oh my... tetiba sedih kan? Huuu

Kadang kita sesuka hati bazirkan airlah, elektrik lah..dan dengan seronoknya makan makanan mewah! sedangkan diluar sana.. benda-benda macam tu susahhhh sangat nak dapat.

Rancangan yang kedua tadi aku tengok, hurm baru tau juga rupanya di India, bila usia dah 20 mesti kahwin. Selagi tak kahwin seorang ayah itu rasakan itu masalah besar bagi dirinya.

Kelakar, ada laa seorang perempuan India ni yang bekerja di Jepun.. dia rasa kahwin awal tu satu masalah besar bagi dia. Setiap kali balik, mesti ayah dia tanya bila nak kahwin..OMG!kalau lah aku, sekarang jugak nak kahwin kalau ditanya =p  *tipuTIPU

Sampailah dia balik Nepal, ayah dia still tanya benda yang sama. Sampai lah satu hari tu, dia cuba slow talk dengan ayah, dia explain alasan dia taknak kahwin dulu kenapa. Dia explain yang dia nak bawa teknologi pengurusan sampah yang sistematik di Jepun ke India, sebab India ni teruk sangat dengan sampah-sarap. Dah tercapai barulah dia fikir untuk kahwin. Ayah dia bila dengar ke alasan tu(walaupun berat hati) terima je lah... huhuhu..sedih..bila tengok riak muka ayah dia.

Hurmm... itu je nak cerita. Hehe.. rasa macam, hurm.. tak sangka kan, disuruh kahwin awal pun boleh jadi masalah kepada seseorang. Takpa-takpa,
Allah menguji hamba-Nya mengikut kemampuan hamba-Nya kan. Be strong ok!Allah sentiasa bersama orang-orang yang bersabar :)

Crush lama

Eherm, nak cakap bm.
Sebut tentang crush..
Tapi bukan nak cakap kita suka dia saja-saja
Aku kagum dengan dia, and aku ikuti semua perkembangan dia dari dia belajar di Russia dalam aviation sampai lah dia dah balik kerja kat Malaysia and dah kahwin dah pun, baru je. NANGIS!
Entah kenapa, aku kagum dengan lelaki Melayu ini. Haha!aku jarang rasa kagum dengan lelaki Melayu melainkan ayah.. and ada sebab-sebab tertentu sahaja yang buat aku kagum pada lelaki Melayu.
Jejaka yang aku cerita ni.. hurm, sangat bijak merancang kewangan.

Di saat kawan-kawan dia yang lain tengah berseronok melancong guna duit rakyat, tapi tidak pada dia. Setelah aku ikuti perkembangannya, baru dapat tahu.. rupanya dia simpan duit untuk masa depan.Well done,bro!

Di awal usianya 24 tahun, dia berjaya beli rumah.Tapi rumah untuk disewakan bagi students uitm Shah Alam. SEE!bijak kan dia?!! Dia menceburi bidang hartanah sebaik sahaja pulang,dan graduate dari Russia. Dia berjumpa dan banyak ambil ilmu dari otai-otai hartanah.Oh my!untung wife dia. HEE..
Dengan cara itu, secara tak langsung boleh dapat income bulanan kan?

Hurm, dia buatkan aku tertarik untuk menceburi bidang hartanah. Well we'll see.. huhu.

Haha!tu sahaja nak dicerita. Sesungguhnya aku kagum dengan anak MELAYU yang berwawasan, bukan pada yang lahir memang dah kaya, bukan juga pada yang asyik buang duit merata-rata. NANGES!

Dan.. hurm,
Sampai sekarang aku ingat pesan ayah,
"Jangan bekerja dengan orang Melayu, kerana orang Melayu bila nampak wang besar, mudah putih mata, kawan sendiri pun boleh lupa."

Huu..takutnya untuk melangkah dunia sebenar, yang tak lama lagi.

Kerja?sambung master?double degree?architecture?business?

Allah sebaik-baik perancang :)

Oh Malaysiaku

Eherm.. mungkin post kali ini berbaur kematangan. Eherm.

Bila dah duduk Jepun, baru angan-angan untuk mencorakkan dunia hiburan di Malaysia timbul secara tiba-tiba.

Mencorakkan yang macam mana tu? Hurm, entahlah, aku seakan-akan sangat tak berpuas hati dengan rancangan-rancangan televisyen Malaysia, apa tidaknya penuh dengan cerita cinta semata-mata tak pun rancangan gossip, lawak bodoh, pertandingan realiti tv yang mencungkil bakat untuk dijadikan penyanyi yang ke 10 juta... -.-" Jujur untuk diperkatakan, aku pernah untuk cuba menonton drama yang orang Malaysia tergila-gilakan but baru sampay 3,4 episod, aku seakan-akan dah dapat mengagak apa yang akan berlaku seterusnya. Sedih!Frust! Plot cerita yang sama,
perempuan dirogol-masalah-akhirnya setelah bermacam halangan dicintai lelaki yang mulia..
Anak orang kaya yang dipaksa berkahwin-masalah(lelaki yang dikahwininya tak suka pdnya,etc)-akhirnya bahagia
Pusing-pusing balik situ je!
Huh! Dan semenjak aku duduk di negara orang, dah tak ada perasaan,minat nak tengok tv di malaysia waktu balik cuti.
Maaf cakap.
Hurm, no wonder la Malaysia(negara Islam) antara top ten paling banyak hiburan. ASTAGHFIRULLAH!

Aku sangat suka variety show di Jepun. Sebab banyak sangat pengetahuan am. Mungkin rakyat Jepun sukakan pengetahuan am, di samping p***o. Antara rancangannya;
Jemput artis-artis bincangkan sesuatu topik (contohnya macam mana nak berdepan dengan situasi kalau bos mcm ni, situasi kwn punya crush jadi bf sendiri dan bla bla bla.. )
Tempat-tempat yg orang Jepun tinggal(menyingkap hidup mereka di negara orang)
Kuiz ilmiah dalam kalangan artis, tapi seronok(tak tahu nak explain macam mana)～yelah bila dengan artis2 sesi kuiz mestilah havoc and kelakar kan

Oh ya, baru-baru ini ada kisah melancong ke Malaysia.. hee. And show tu pasal melancong ke negara asing.(hurm bila tengok tu, boleh bagi idea nak melancong tempat menarik. I like!)
Ada satu tempat yang aku nak pergi disebabkan tengok show ni, iaitu...... (rahsia) tapi tempat tu tengok Aurora dalam igloo :)

Rancangan menyingkap kisah hidup orang asing di Jepun lah...

Show berasaskan kesihatan lah, siap bagi kuiz carrot yang bentuk macam mana paling bagus, warna terung macam mana yang dikatakan terbaik..sayur tertentu tu lagi berkhasiat kalau dimasak dengan cara goreng(ha!korang mesti nak tahu) menyingkap gaya hidup orang tua laa.. tips2 kesihatan yang tak pernah tahu!ah! Best!

Ada tu, macam mana nak menghasilkan barang berguna just shopping dekat 100yen shop je! Banyak gilaaa dapat inspirasi. Heee..

Dan banyakkkkkk lagi!
Oh god! Kalau aku pulang ke Malaysia, antara benda yang aku rindui di Jepun tentunya variety show Japan. Aaaaaa.. kenapalah Malaysia tak ada macam tu.. sampai kadang-kadang rasa nak je bagi idea-idea kat televisyen Malaysia... banyakkanlah rancangan ilmiah sikit. Ye,ye saya tahu rakyat Malaysia sukakannnnnn hiburan tapi why not rancangan hiburan berasaskan ilmiah. Ilmiah bukan boleh dipelajari di saat serius je, anytime boleh, and ilmu itu merangkupi banyak benda kan?

Sekian dari saya yang tidak berpuas hati terhadap rancangan-rancangan tv di Malaysia.

Believe ビリーヴ

Destiny
この出会いは奇跡のように
ほら、君と二人巡り会えた
Suddenly...
You have changed my life
その全てが、いま
きらめきを放つ memories
明日への ray of light
輝く空に続く道

離さない(I Believe)
このまま
たとえどんなことがあっても
もう離れない(I Believe)
必ず
君といくよあの場所へと
一人じゃない
I'll be by your side
信じる勇気を
強く胸に抱いて
I Believe

Silently...
言葉なんていらないから
そう、君がそばにいるのなら
Hand in hand
はじめは小さな力でも
We can make it through
大きくなる
希望の ray of light
輝く空に続く道

変わらない (I Believe)
想いは
たとえどんなことがあっても
もう怖くない(Don't be afraid)
'Cos I'm with you
共に描く未来の先へ
一人じゃない
I'll be by your side
信じる勇気を
強く胸に抱いて
I Believe

I'll be strong いまなら
乗り越えていく you and me, yeah
この地球の上で
繋げてゆく愛は消えないから
I Love You

離さない(I Believe)
このまま
たとえどんなことがあっても
もう離れない(I Believe)
必ず
君といくよあの場所へと
一人じゃない
I'll be by your side
信じる勇気を
強く胸に抱いて
I Believe

あああ、この歌が大好きわ！！
なんか、Che'nelle が歌ったのに、信じられないわ！！ええ!Che'nelle はマレーシアのサバーという国の出身じゃないの？
すごい！なんか、色々の言語が話せて、歌える。。本当にすごいよね♪
あたしはうらやましいな～

Nikah

Hello my long-time-no-see diary,
Hah!agak agak mesti orang yang kenal aku terkejut kalau aku cakap tentang nikah!

Heh, itu bukan yang nak diketengahkan di sini.
Cuma nak luahkan, yang aku tak pernah tengok orang akad nikah live!
Haha percaya atau tak, umur aku dah nak 23 okayyy!tapi still tak dapat peluang nak tengok secara live.
Huuu bila lah impian nak tengok akad nikah tu secara live.
Kawan-kawan, saudara2 pleaseeee ajak saya ke majlis akad nikah anda.
NAK TENGOK! :'(

Huh!what a nonsense confession right?

P/s: awak, saya nak pergi majlis akad nikah awak?

Coincidence

What a coincidence! We wear the same shirt(jersey) at the same day for baju tidur. 

We（´ 3｀) Chelsea!

Even tidur pun semangat chelsea＼(^-^)／  

Dunia sendiri

Dear diary,
Haha! Tajuk dunia sendiri.
Di saat semua orang sibuk dgn insta,twitter, keek.. aku sibuk dgn blog(yg dianggap oldskool sgt) -.-"
Kadang aku suka benda yang tak banyak orang ada,buat..
I just fancy something unique..mungkin.
Ceyhh, entahlah.. kadang aku selalu mahu something yang lain dari lain..
Tak tahulah sama ada itu angan-angan yang orang akan cakap "heh!imposibbru!"
Aku impikan cuti tanpa gaji yang panjang untuk merantau secara backpacker setelah 2～3 tahun berhempas pulas bekerja.
Aku impikan pelayaran cruise yang membawa aku ke seluruh port2,pelusuk dunia.
Aku impikan pulau sendiri. Dan pulau yang ingin dibeli adalah di sekitar Langkawi.
Aku impikan punyai helicopter dan jet peribadi.
Aku impikan sambil aku merantau, aku bekerja, rasa pengalaman bekerja di serata dunia.
Aku impikan apa yang ayahku angan-angankan (rahsia... :)  )
Aku impikan perkahwinan yang santai di tepi pantai, bertemakan picnic mungkin sambil pengantin datang dengan hot air balloon :) kerana aku bukan indoor-type-person. Heh!
Aku impikan gabungan kerjaya electic-architect (archilectric) :)
Aku impikan jadi 'somebody' yg sentiasa di belakang 'tabir' yang byk membantu ke jalan Islam. :)
Aku impikan....
Banyak lagi.. yang mungkin tak boleh disebutkan kerana ia lebih kepada rahsia.

private setting

I changed the private setting already, but yet I still didn't manage to delete the old inappropriate pictures..been too busy with the future-making stuff! but I'll try to delete one by one starting from now maybe. Hah! I miss blogging too much as this so called hobby might improve my writings(?) Like seriously my whole language was suck! again, pardon me. im right-brain major, so I'm very bad at language!hah! I'm thinking to start writing again because, hurm I feel that nobody got time to lend their ears with all the nonsense thing that I would talk about..haha, and........I miss receiving motivational comment from anonymous, and from the person I've known too :( like seriously.

p/s: one of my 2014 resolution; start studying English, Japanese, German and not to forget BAHASA MELAYU from the root. Huh! I wish I'm 100 percent discipline with that. K bye!

be the 'mahal' one

Hello my lovely diary.. Long time no see huh! I miss writing about everything here;my feelings,my journey, my ups and downs, etc.. but seems my phone service provider wouldnt allowed me to open the blogger, and so there is no use installing the blogger's app.. i didnt have the chance to update the blog. Hate it!

Huh! I dont know where to start, i dont know whome i can spill all my thought to.. but,just now,i saw an interesting sentence which like any girl who got too many guys chasing on her, she is 'cheap'! Hahaha

Well actually, this thing has came into my mind a longgggg time ago. The old me that keep 'layan' all the guys.. calling till midnight, having a date, and bla bla bla. untill one day, i feel very sick about it. Yeah.. You know when you been going through it for a long time, at the end you feel very bored! Waking up, and you got to see tons of messages received on both phones(at that time i got 2 phones) was not a happy thing to see anymore. I try to slow down my relationship with guys, and here you go.. i guess in this meantime, i dont have a guyfriend hanging around me right now. But it is not the saddest thing for me, it is the great achievement i've achieved! I guess its time to let go, my old me.. and start the new me, the mahal one. And now, i started to feel a bit jealous to those girl, which guy really scare to get near.. i mean, the guys wouldnt hang out with her without any important reason.. and the guy who go near her, would just definitely want to make her as his wife. Awesome.

Huh.. i dont know what im babbling about.. I think i need to improve my whole language.. im really bad at language.. Pardon me. Thats all.. bye!