private setting

I changed the private setting already, but yet I still didn't manage to delete the old inappropriate pictures..been too busy with the future-making stuff! but I'll try to delete one by one starting from now maybe. Hah! I miss blogging too much as this so called hobby might improve my writings(?) Like seriously my whole language was suck! again, pardon me. im right-brain major, so I'm very bad at language!hah! I'm thinking to start writing again because, hurm I feel that nobody got time to lend their ears with all the nonsense thing that I would talk about..haha, and........I miss receiving motivational comment from anonymous, and from the person I've known too :( like seriously.

p/s: one of my 2014 resolution; start studying English, Japanese, German and not to forget BAHASA MELAYU from the root. Huh! I wish I'm 100 percent discipline with that. K bye!

be the 'mahal' one

Hello my lovely diary.. Long time no see huh! I miss writing about everything here;my feelings,my journey, my ups and downs, etc.. but seems my phone service provider wouldnt allowed me to open the blogger, and so there is no use installing the blogger's app.. i didnt have the chance to update the blog. Hate it!

Huh! I dont know where to start, i dont know whome i can spill all my thought to.. but,just now,i saw an interesting sentence which like any girl who got too many guys chasing on her, she is 'cheap'! Hahaha

Well actually, this thing has came into my mind a longgggg time ago. The old me that keep 'layan' all the guys.. calling till midnight, having a date, and bla bla bla. untill one day, i feel very sick about it. Yeah.. You know when you been going through it for a long time, at the end you feel very bored! Waking up, and you got to see tons of messages received on both phones(at that time i got 2 phones) was not a happy thing to see anymore. I try to slow down my relationship with guys, and here you go.. i guess in this meantime, i dont have a guyfriend hanging around me right now. But it is not the saddest thing for me, it is the great achievement i've achieved! I guess its time to let go, my old me.. and start the new me, the mahal one. And now, i started to feel a bit jealous to those girl, which guy really scare to get near.. i mean, the guys wouldnt hang out with her without any important reason.. and the guy who go near her, would just definitely want to make her as his wife. Awesome.

Huh.. i dont know what im babbling about.. I think i need to improve my whole language.. im really bad at language.. Pardon me. Thats all.. bye!

berlagak

baru selesai menonton video mat luthfi grad!
nantonaku air mate tiba-tiba mengalir.
fuahhh! tak tahu mengapa?
mungkin hati yang meronta-ronta nak pegang segulung ijazah.
malas
malas
dan malas nak fikir
cuba berlagak se-happy yang mungkin
moga dipermudahkan urusan.

are you sleeping

i love watching you sleep
u're sleeping while im burning the midnight oil
i miss ur lips
how i wish i can be there
just beside you
i miss u
i miss ur body next to me
i wish having u beside me all day long
i miss u
;(

i need a PAUSE

Woah, since blog ni was set into private, macam berkurang pula post. but no! its not about i dont have the mood to blog, but hurm macam-macam sangat unexpected happens till i cant breath. such a non-stop unexpected things happen and you dont have any minutes nor seconds to take a long breathe.

Ya allah,
ive put all my soul to you,
kebergantungan yang 100% padamu,
sometimes we plans but not all the plans will go smoothly,
and sometimes without any reason the plan needs to be cancelled.
i know Allah knows best about this.

and i have accept it just few weeks ago.
Japan is not for me. No it is not.
i believe there's something precious out there waiting for me.